life, interrupted.

I know we’re in the home stretch here with less than 45 days to go. (yikes!) But you know, sometimes life gets in the way.

My dad is sick, has been for a while, and unfortunately, it’s not getting better. I’m going back home to Nashville for a week starting tomorrow. On Monday, I’ll join my mom and dad at a Nephrologist where his kidneys will be biopsied. They’ll either say he’s eligible for dialysis or that they’ll skip to a transplant.

I am scared. I feel helpless. But I’m trying to keep my head in the right place… that is, AFTER doing the following google searches:

Kidney Failure Causes, Symptoms, Diagnosis, and Treatment

Is it possible to reduce blood creatinine level?

What Causes Elevated Creatinine Levels?

kidney damage

Kidney transplantation

Kidney failure

Risks of Living Organ Donation

What is Paired Organ Donation

how old is too old for kidney transplant?

I’ve promised myself no more searches until after Monday’s appointment. I’m also trying to make a commitment to myself that I’ll try to be as upbeat as possible around my dad this weekend. Today was the first time in my life I heard him express fear. It crushed me.

me: “dad, i’m really scared over here.”  dad: “i am too, april.”

four words i never wanted to hear him say.

so, i’ll continue to be MIA this week while I’m home. send the best thoughts and/or prayers over our if you can. promise i’ll return the favor one day.

oh! and my pal brandy did the math, if my kidney goes, that 1/4 of a pound i’ll lose. weight off and dad lives. win/win.

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